We judge, we make fun, we tease, we bully, we assume, but the worst part is, after all the inconsiderate things we do, it all comes down to what thing we don’t do. We don’t think about other peoples feelings. We don’t realize that everyone has a story, a life, and everyone goes through screwed up shit. So why are people still jerks? Why do we use terrible excuses like “it’ll never happen again” “I can’t help it” “that’s how I am”? Because no one has the guts to change. Everyone talks about being different and unique, but no one really does it. If everyone could just be empathetic once in a while, think about others before themselves and FINALLY realize that no one, rich or poor, black or white, tall or short, no one deserves to be treated like shit. Then those people will stop feeling like shit. We need to stop thinking so highly of ourselves and so low of people we don’t even know. It’s so sickening to see the pain on people’s faces when someone offends them. We need to grow some damn balls and think. For once, that maybe the little things that were saying are the big things that people can’t handle hearing. And I say we, because I’m not any different, I’m a jerk too. Everyone’s just a big jerk and no one can say they’ve never judged or made fun, like I said, it’s everyone but just think, think before you speak. Think before you do. Everything starts with a step one, right
Forgiveness
Forgiving someone that hurt you real badly is one of the most challenging things to do in life. Forgiveness doesn’t come easy for most of us. You hold that grudge or that burden against them and it’s hard to look at them the way you used to before everything happened. It holds you back in life making you think that you’ll never forgive that person even when you want to but it just seems impossible to do so. That hatred feeling you have against them that seems to burn every time you think about that person and what he or she has done to you. But I just want to say that holding that grudge against that person will hold you down and hold you back in life. Whether it may be an old friend or maybe a family member. It doesn’t have to be a physical act of forgiving them. It can be in just a state of mind. No matter who it is, try to forgive them because once you feel like you’ve truly forgiven someone, all that hatred, bitterness, hurt, and resentment that imprisoned you will disappear out of your life.
I like how my poor decisions lead me into this situation. I knew it’s going to be hard for me. I just wasn’t prepared for it. I make a lot of mistakes, and those mistakes aren’t even forgiven, only some are. Whatever though, you have a good life, and I have the bullshit life. You wouldn’t know because you’re not in my situation.. I’m in a much more complicated situation than you ever think.
I Realized That..
I survived October… I remember around the 2nd or 3rd week where I was at such a low point and I wanted to just drop a few classes. But I came out superior and aced two tests and am currently waiting on two more results… Such a huge accomplishment for me. Now, it's November. we'll see how this goes.
One Thing About Us (Young People)
We all think we need to rush things when we’ve got so many years a head of us. I’m going to address a specific topic, starting a relationship. I’ll admit, I have rushed into a relationship, and as soon as I rushed, everything ended so fast. When you finally meet somebody you think you can’t live without, somebody you never want to lose, and somebody you want to spend therest of your life with, then why do you insist on speeding everything up? Everybody knows, young relationships don’t last, it’s not an opinion, it’s a fact. Be friends, talk on the phone, don’t be so straight up about your feelings. Take your time, because if you’re friends before a relationship, the higher the chance you will last in a relationship. You’ll know the person inside and out and you’ll know if you want to be with them.
It’s gonna be alright. I’m just gonna focus on me for a while. I don’t want to deal with friends or girls or anything. I just want to take this weekend to think and figure my life out. I need a break from everything. If everything is worth it then my absence won’t change anything. If it isn’t then i’ll be alone. I’ll take care of myself and chase my dreams. No friends. No girlfriend. No nothing.
I Have So Many Times
Where I just want a girlfriend. I miss falling asleep on the phone with someone every night. Talking about your day and I know she’s listening. Or even just reminiscing about the times when me and her hanged out. Texting 24/7 and having thoughts in my mind wondering what she’s doing if she replies slower than she usually does. Having those fights to the point where you wanna break up but then finding a way to fix it and make it better. I guess I’m just picky with girls, it takes me a while to like someone. Or maybe I just lose interest quickly, and then they just come back but then she’s the one who loses interest. Well, I’ll find someone eventually just gotta give it some time. It takes time to love right ? :p
Argument Between an Atheist Professor of Philosophy and A Student.
Professor: You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Professor: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is God good, then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
Professor: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Professor: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From.. God.
Professor: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Professor: So who created evil?
(Student didn't answer)
Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, who created them?
(Student had no answer)
Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor: Yes.
Student: No, sir, there isn't.
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light... But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it's called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The class was in uproar)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class broke out into laughter)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
Professor: I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!
That student was Albert Einstein.
Unsatisfaction
I’m not content with where I am right now. My surroundings and the people I see everyday aren’t enough for me. Everything nowadays is routine and really repetitive. There’s not enough excitement to put me at my happiest. And lately it’s been leaving me at a state of emptiness. All I’m asking for is a change. To get away from everything, with minimal restriction. Maybe just then, I’ll be satisfied with the way my life is. But for right now, I have to live with the system I have at the moment, taking life one day at a time.
Thinking About The Past
I hate thinking about it. I hate thinking about how they affected me, I hate how there we’re other choices that could’ve been made from them, I hate thinking about how some of those other choices could’ve been chosen instead and how they could’ve affected the future to now.
Dont Leave
I’m sorry if I’m random all the time. I’m sorry if I make fun of you a lot, it’s all out of love. I’m sorry if I flirt a lot. I’m sorry if I become an asshole to you. I’m sorry if I make you feel like shit. I’m sorry if I mistreat you at times. I’m sorry if I can’t be there next to you whenever you need me. I’m sorry if I feel needy at times. I’m sorry that I’m so complicated. I’m sorry that you have to deal with me. I’m trying to change for the better, for you. I want you to be happy. It may take time for me to change, but still.. I want you to stay with m
Just.. Blank Thoughts
I always have the time of day where it’s usually after midnight and I’m just in my room sitting down and thinking about life but nothing comes up. I feel so lost. I feel as if I don’t know where I’m headed or where life’s going to take me. Even when I do try, still… nothing. I’m in a moment where everything is just blank. Nothing seems to be clear and everything in my life seems like a blur.
Immature Students
You think your funny trying to pull these kiddish pranks? You think you’re cool because you talk back to the teacher. You think others will like you because you got sent to the office? Really? Really now? Do you not care about your education. Do you even try? I can’t stand seeing students like you doing these things daily. What’s your problem? Don’t even go to school if that’s all your going to do. im not hypocrite saying all these things but i atleast i try to get good grades and make most of my education.
Being In Love Can Be Scary
It’s mixed feelings left and right. Some days your happy as fuck and some days you feel like things are going to end. It’s confusing too. You’ve just got to learn to understand the other person. Most of all trust them. Trust that you’ll both work along side with each other and give each other both your
I'd Rather Look Better In Person Than Pictures
Sometimes people can look better in pictures because of a certain angle, or editing or the lighting or contrast of the room. I don’t know I wouldn’t wanna be known as “photogenic” only because people expect you too look like the way you do in pictures and in person. Personally, I’d rather just look better in person. Just what I think..
Baller
Anyone remember these? LIVESTRONG. These came out quite a few years back, maybe five or so. Their main purpose was to raise funding for cancer research in response to Lance Armstrong’s proclamation that he was diagnosed with lung and brain cancer. Using his fame, he promoted his wristbands. Within the next month, the spread of this wristband was exponential. Everyone had one. The young and old alike. Not everyone was aware of their purpose but bought one just because someone else had it. The reason behind the product wasn’t the main focus of consumers, the focus was creating a product that would appeal to everyone and would generate huge masses of profit. They were successful. Just like icancervive. Behind the hype of these products is a producer with a smile on his face as he reaps the benefits of this world of followers who want only to fit in.
It's Ironic How
People wear those saint bracelets and rosaries and they take pictures of themselves flicking off the camera with their middle fingers up. It’s funny how we wear these “accessories” but then we get kinda two faced and do unholy like things while we wear these accessories. Sorry, I just find it SO IRONIC how some people flick off the camera and I see them wearing a saints bracelet or rosary. Or when people take pictures of them faded and I see them with a rosary on.
To Girls.. & Guys: Playing Hard To Get
Playing hard to get is a skill that everyone should learn. Many people get the wrong idea when these words are placed together. Some get the notion that by playiing hard to get, you’re a tease or too picky. But its not like that at all. I see it as an investment. How are you going to truly know if someone wants to like/potentially love you if you just go ahead and make it easy for them? I think thats whats wrong with alot of failed couples today. Once someone likes someone, and they like them back, they go out. Wheres the challenges, and the obstacles that you give them to show you that being with them could be something long term? Playing hard to get doesnt mean you’re stuck up or a bitch or someone who’s too picky. It just means that you want someone whos going to want you for your heart and personality. Find someone thats going to chase you. Someone who is going to endure waiting for you, and someone whos dying to be with you. Once you do, you’ll be in a relationship thats worth having.
Ruining Reputations.
Facebook does that. Not everything you hear or see on Facebook is legit. Something that starts off as a joke becomes really serious. This drama going on (even thought it’s entertaining) makes me think of people in a different way. Impressions change. Sometimes it’s not a good thing. Please don’t believe everything you see on Facebook. It’s a HUGE community and word gets around fast. Do your research before you write your paper.
today's generation! heads up!!!
Seriously? SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP. I’m so over hearing how different this generation is from the previous. Newsflash. It’s always been like that. The 90’s definitely weren’t like the 70’s. Every generation will be different. The same things will happen. There will still be the snotty rich and spoiled kids, the rebels, the druggies, the nerds, and everything in between. The only difference that makes each generation different is the fact that technology advances. Look at the kids now. Kindergardeners are going to school with Iphones and technology is becoming accessible to everyone. We have to understand that in our day, the technology wasn’t what it is today. It’s not the generation itself, but the technology that advances who we become during the generation that puts us down the drain.
Public Transportation
The bad thing about having to take the jeepney or sometimes the tricycle, the people stink. People smell like they have fish hanging out of their ass or they haven’t discovered a bar of soap. I don’t know. Some people are obnoxious and get loud, I would describe these people the “careless people” (in a way they take care of their body) It’s true, but hey I’m not being mean by mentioning any names or where they live! The good thing about having to take the jeepney or sometimes the tricycle, you meet interesting people. Certain people on jeepney makes me laugh because they get my humor and it’s good to see someone has given a chuckle. Also, the nice people who offer change when you or another person doesn’t have enough. They just want to know how’s life going and what’s in store for the youth generation. To meet people that are friendly than others in an unexpected situation is “wow.” This is their stop, when will I see them again? Take care.
Time Is Of The Essence
It’s funny. I realized that after highschool, time flies. It seems like there’s never enough hours in the day to do the things that needs to be done. Your weeks go by fast, you never have enough time for homework or sleep and next thing you know, you’re a year older. Time is tricky. When you anticipate something, time slows down. When you’re having fun, time flies. When you’re bored, time takes forever. The only thing to say really? Live in the moment. Nothing last’s forever.
You're An Idiot, And So Are They!
Lol, and what does that make you? The God of the world? Dude, please. Not every statement that comes out of your mouth is true. More or less, right. That’s good. You’re done with every shit that’s going on. But let me assure you. More shit will happen in the near future. So don’t be so sure with what you said. Go ahead, laugh all you want. It doesn’t make you a better person anyway. It’s not your problem, so your ass shouldn’t be in it. Don’t bring yourself in people’s lives if you’re just going to be the problem. Yeah, sure. You’re trying to help a brother/sister out. And then call them stupid? Some real friend you are, huh? That’s not giving advice, but going against the definition of the word ‘friend’. Please don’t bother replying. If you do, then you’re clearly not done with all this shit.
Independent??
every week its such a struggle to stay up in cash, and having to plan out on where i should and shouldnt spend things on. never realized how hard it was trying to get a job. i want to get a job so bad but i just dont know how to balance things. i was about to fail on class even tho im a full time student, how much more if i have something else to do which would cause me stress and blah! i guess the only reason why im still stuck on this situation is cause im just tired of being so dependent on my parents. im always having limitations because of the lack of money i have. im just ready to take on the responsibility of earning money on my own rather than just asking for it and feeling like such a burden.
I Want To Be..
…the best father a child could ask for. I’ll decorate their room weeks before they’re born so that they have a cozy place called home, even though they’re going to sleep in mommy and daddy’s bed for awhile. I’ll change their diapers as soon as I smell its presence. I’ll wake up at three in the morning and sing them to sleep if they wake up crying. I’ll wake up and cook them ham, bacon or egg or even pancakes with whipped cream. I’ll buy them all the toys they want. I’ll take them to the park and afterwards we’ll go eat our favorite ice cream, whether it’s pistacio delight or almonds like their mom or strawberry like their dad. I’ll take them to waterparks or to the dopest carnivals and buy them a churro even if they cost 500 pesos. I’ll let them have their birthdays at everywhere they'd like. I’ll drive them to their first date, no matter how awkward it is for me. I’ll give them enough allowance to hang out with friends but make sure they balance it with time with the family. I’ll support them in any activity they do. I’ll teach them how to swim, just like daddy used to when he was young. I’ll go to every one of their games and cheer them on in the stands. I will raise them in my own self-image. I’ll go to their graduations and award ceremonies. I won’t take any credit for their accomplishments. I’ll watch them grow out of my grasp as they get big enough to make their own decisions. I’ll support most of their decisions and accept who they choose to be with. I’ll put my kids’ needs before my own especially if it means they grow to be even a better person than their own daddy.
Everyone Has Their Weak Spot for That One Person
Where they break down and cry and take that person back. blah blah blah.
Yeah, not me. This was us : Bestfriends = Strangers.
I know you expected some sort of reconnection or whatever, and it seems lovely, really. I really wanna tell you that we could be friends again, and hang, and share snacks, and wave to eachother as we pass throught the hallways. But really, i only have two sorrys.
I just wanna say sorry for hanging up. I honestly couldn’t handle talking to you anymore. & as much as i admire your balllssss for calling me - i don’t want anything to do with you. at all. After all you put me through, i’m gonna take the high road, and not give you the time of day, or a second chance. So, sorry for answering your call in the first place.
I may sound like a total ass for sayin that ^ . but whatever. forrrreal. Fuck you. You deserve it.
I Regret Giving Up Too Easily On My Past Friendships.
This time, i'll talk about my personal experiences regarding friendship and the way i handle it. some people may take advantage of the fact that im a giver and not a taker. well, sometimes, people are hard to understand but the fact that im easy to handle is just too much for me. people are taking advantages and it hurts to know when u lose those people who are close to you! and sometimes.. i have to step up before it's too late!
If my friend and I ever gotten into a huge fight, I’d give up; I wouldn’t fight for the friendship. I regret this so much. I’ve lost friends that have meant so much to me. Friends who I can be my complete self with: act silly in public, cry my eyes out, comfortable with their presence 24/7, and tell secrets I wouldn’t have thought about sharing.
It's Crazy How People Drift Apart.
It’s funny. One year, a few months, a couple weeks is all it takes for a friendship to fade. You guys can be talking on the phone every single night. Hanging out every day. Doing whatever. But then something just happens that changes everything. You start hanging out with different people, making new friends, getting a boyfriend/girlfriend, all this random shit. And then you guys stop chilling and talking as much. It may even get to a point where you guys don’t talk or chill at all anymore.
Even after awhile, trying to rekindle that friendship is hard. People change. They talk to different people. And when you try to bring up the past, it’s not as effective cause it’s just like “oh yeahhh .. ahaha.” And then the conversation dies. It’s unfortunate. But it’s bound to happen.
It’s sad really, but what can you do.
Hardest Part of Break Up
The hardest part of a break up is.. /:
GF's reaction paper :)
In this world where there are different kinds of government, the Philippine democratic government made another history for the world to see. People are judgemental, no doubt. The anticipation of each citizen in a particular country are very inevitable when it comes to government and how it is being managed by a powerful official, hence, presidents play a very important role here. The diversity of people’s perception towards a country’s government is very keen that government officials are conscious about the impression of people towards them.
Philippines, a democratic country, which has a population that is pertinently putting their focus about the improvement of the Republic of the Philippines came to a conclustion that they need to answer the country’s controversial question.. can this 15th president produce a major change for the betterment of the country? In the succeeding years of the president's regime, people will see if the question can be answered by a yes, a no or.. an I don’t know.
Benigno “Noynoy” Aquino III, the 15th president of the Republic of the Philippines inaugurated his reign on 29th of June, 2010. He was very joyful and enthusiastic about the ceremony and to make sure that the citizens could witness another history, the officials declared the particular day, a holiday. His family, relatives, friends and even his family’s closest celebrities came to the venue, Quirino Grandstand, to witness hi’s official beginning to serve the country. On that day, as I was watching the ceremony through ABS-CBN Live telecast, I can see it in his face that he was full of hopes that his reign will be transitory since he’s an offspring of the late previous presidents, Cory Aquino and Benigno Aquino II.
While he was waiting for 12 noon for his oath taking, Philippine musicians and singers performed and serenaded the people and the presidents to make the ceremony more agog of the presidents words. It was apparently entertaining since the people were singing along and dancing happily. The people’s delegated president finally delivered his speech. People were applauding the whole time as he delivered his speech, sentence by sentence because it seems very realistic and not deceiving. Of course, it’s a-must and very easy for a president to deliver that kind of speech to make a good impression to people but is it also easy to deliver the speech by action? We don’t know. Unless we look at the future and evaluate Noynoy’s actions and contributions. I want a change, a huge and the best change for my country and im expecting the president to be very volitional in carrying out his service. Some people (adults and old people) said right after his speech that it was elusive, like they don’t understand the whole concept. Is it because they just don’t like the president and they didn’t vote for him or is it because that they know Noynoy and family Aquino’s history of deceiving people. I could care less, as long as Noynoy took a big leap in changing himself, he’d carry out his service well without dictations by moronic people around him. I believed in his speech and I was thinking to myself, no president would ever constrain his/her country for the sake of own’s benefits. Even if Noynoy will be a corruptive president in the next succeeding years, im sure he’d still do his best to give it all back to the people. It is highly hypocritical for a president to say that they don’t take even 1% of the total taxes. If Noynoy do that, im pretty sure he’d compromise and it’s a matter of give and take and he wouldn’t compel the people because of his selfishness.
Let’s just hope that this country will be successful and there’s harmony that will surround everybody to live in peace and to live a hope of a better country and better economy.
So my afternoon class went like this. Had this History teacher who is very pertinent with subject matters related to Philosophy,History, Origins and Theology. His first day with us went well as far as I know and we had a blast during his class. He has a great sense of humor somehow but idk why I feel like falling asleep most of the time. But he was toasting me like the whole time! It was jst cool wd me. I don’t have a problem with that cause he ddnt throw me some annoying shit. He was just toasting me in a good way and like, he’d always seen me most of the time and idk why.
In the middle of the class he asked me ‘do u know what gift is?’ I said ‘yes, it’s like skills, talent and etc from God’ then he started the argument with ‘are u sure there is a God?’ I was like,’yea there is!’ and then he told us a couple of stories about how God doesn’t exist and it’s just mere fiction and all that. I was freakin annoyed to hear those words since im a Christian and I jst believe in God wholeheartedly. So I slightly argued with him about it and I was thinking ‘he probably heard my words from the other Christians so I just shouldn’t spit it out and keep my mouth shut’.
He ddnt argue wd me like he was stuck on it. When I stopped talkin to him, he stopped too. It’s act’ly my first time to encounter some atheist (idk if he’s really atheist since I’ve heard he has this Christian school for kids) who act’ly voiced out about their beliefs in science and not in God. I was kinda pissed off but oh well, he jst took those argument back by his joke but still couldn’t forget it. Idk if I should still argue with him whenever he goes inside the class but I sure will tell him something.. something that he’ll realize for the rest of his life. Im not sure if this is a good and effective idea but im sure he’ll get what I mean.
FATHER's DAY POST
I know my dad doesn’t really communicate with me a lot, but he sure knows how to make me happy. He’s not those type of serious dad, only when it comes to something that really piss him off. But overall, my dad is a long temper type of dad. Sometimes my dad acts really immature when it comes to having fun. He jokes around the most random things ever! My dad and I always wants to get out of the house, because either we’re bored or my mom was being annoying. He always tells me things that my mom shouldn’t know until she finds out, like buying expensive things. I may be getting older and older every year, but I’ll always be my papa’s own son. I love you dad.
McDonald's
SUMMER
this is the most boring summer vacation ever! i dont know why i have to put up wd my school's shit and all that.. taking summer classes, suffering being teachers's pet, non-stop school projects and what not. blah! i hate school. i mean, i love school, i jst hate classes and a few teachers. i like kicking it with my classmates tho and pretty much not attending classes anymore cause all we wanted to do is hang and get drunk. JK.
SHAME
DONT HATE
I’m sorry, but it disturbs and upsets me when I see people on Tumblr saying that they “hate” their mom and/or dad.
They didn’t let you go out with your friends or take that trip from Bacolod to Boracay or they take away your cell phone after a 2000php phone bill and all you can say is, “I hate you, mom and dad!” No. You don’t say that. Have you ever thought that they do these things to protect you or teach you a valuable life lesson?
As you may know, I’m not a big fan of the word “hate.” In fact, I hate the word “hate.” It’s too much of a strong word for me to handle. I say it less than “fuck,” “shit,” and “damn.” That’s how often I avoid saying such a word.
I don’t understand how you can hate the two people that gave you the gift of life. They shelter you, feed you, clothe you, raise you, etc.
I guess it’s comprehensible if your mom gave birth to you at 15 and gave you up because she couldn’t handle a child by herself and the baby daddy left her for good, but even if you were adopted by two other people, did your new guardian(s) not provide for you, ever? I mean, they cared enough to take care of you.
Yes, they can do things that annoy you and tick you off, and I can understand that you disagree with or only dislike them at times, but you should be able to get over those things fairly quickly. You have to know that they love you back unconditionally, no matter what. You are their child.
It takes a lot to hate someone, but I will never ever say that I hate my parents. Not my mom, my dad, my stepmom, or my stepdad.
If they’re considered family, they deserve my love.
Period.
WORST RELATIONSHIP PROBLEM I'VE HAD SO FAR
Everybody thinks fussing and fighting is a sign of a healthy relationship but not in my case. Situation’s are getting worse between both of us. Knowing that we don’t see each other even a few times in a month and our conversation sometimes cut off. It’s hella been a upside down in our relationship. It’s not healthy at all, although I’ve been trynna think the opposite and brighter way but I know deep inside my heart it doesn’t seem right. Even my homies always trynna make me feel that it’s normal, normal, normal but is it?? (I need a reply, seriously)
Then as I try to think and reminisce all those problems we had, I realized that it’s my fault.. ALL THE TIME! I always say sorry and keep apologizing until everythngs back to normal again but it shouldn’t be that way. When she says sorry to me, I always feel this security that it’s good again and no more grudges. Reality check here, I admit that it’s always me who make her feel sad about our relationship, upto now. What was I thinking? Am I this bad in handling this kind of relationship, well, not this kind cause this is the first relationship I had and im serious with this. And if I am, why am I not taking this so seriously that I have to make her feel unworthy of everything! Im such a loser. Im not like those guys who can handle relationship the best way possible. I love her but I feel like shes not contented (although she always say it’s ok and she understand it but I deeply think it’s NOT - it never was!) Im making feel myself bad right now because it’s true!
This is a challenge for me, without conflicts and without her standing up to her principles and what she believes for a relationship, everything will completely fall apart. Shes right! She never was wrong. Shes very good at this “relationship” thing! And im not, which I am supposed to. Gawd, should I need a tutor. KC? Nah, this aint good! I don’t want somebody to be handling this between us. I should be standing up for myself and standing up for my girlfriend. I love her soo much that everytime we have a problem I always feel so nervous and uncomftable to function each day. I love her so much that I would give up everything even my friends’s opinions. I love her so much that every single day I think about her and not texting her makes me feel crazy [and this what it’s all about – (STORY: im being real here, not to impress everybody or further explain what really happened. I was supposed to text her and I ddnt and ur prolly wondering why.. I ddnt text her cause I don’t want her to feel useless and forgotten and made her think that I wasn’t making efforts to communicate with her. i was thinking that I have this Sun sim preloaded already and I don’t wanna waste it. I left it in the car and the car wasn’t in my house for the next couple of days cause they have to customized it and I was expecting to get it as early as possible but I wasn’t able to. Then there goes myself, sick literally that I had to go to sleep and not drop a message her on Facebook saying that I cant text her for now and MAYBE tomrw I could get my sim but I ddnt and that’s prolly why shes upset or it’s just that shes been holding her aches and grudge for sooo long that it all came as whole and she just had to spill it all out for me to realize it. Shes good, very good! No joke. A girl who totally knows how to make me realize my asshole-ness.)] now, I am having hard time sleeping and functioning each day cause there goes this BIG (for me) problem again. This is crap, a crap that I made not for the first time, second time, third time, but the crap that I routinely do.
Honey, if you’re reading this. I am soooo sooo sorry :’( sorry for everyhthing I did for the past few months of our relationship. You’ve heard me said this several times already but I’ve never been so sorry for you and for myself. It made me realize how jerk and stupid I am for not treating u the way u should be treated. Huney, I know that your status in Facebook is just the most realist shit I’ve read so far about u, standing up for what u must do and for that, it’s such a great credit for a girl to have. It sounds harsh for people to see it but they ddnt realize how much it affected me and how much it made me think that u should be the girl that you’re supposed to be. KC told me that sometimes, ur afraid to yell at me or to just be mad at me cause we might end up giving up with each other. I wont, and maybe for such a looong time that I’ve been treating u this way, u should’ve already! I jst thank you for giving me chances after chances. Im crying right now, no lie! You have no idea how much u made me realize things. How much u shot me through my heart. I love you so much and I wont give up on u. I just hope u forgive me cause I always try to become a better person, a better boyfriend for u. I have never loved a girl like this my entire life that I have to suffer each day when problem strikes. My flaws are my weakness. You are my happiness and my weakness. I think of u every single day, no other girls in my mind. I’ve learned my lesson now, very valuable one. I hope everythng would b back to normal again and Im serious with this! :’( it’s my fault and im sorry. Please forgive me. I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH IT HURTS :’(
