Tired

It came to the point where I dont enjoy work anymore. I cant get up at 2a everyday and expect a fully energized body throughout the day. I know this kind of job isnt strange anymore. People wake up at the break of dawn and get ready for work and idk if they're used to it but im not. I've been in this company for 5 months now and as much as I try to keep my body adjusted in this transition, I just cant. There are times that Im really in the mood for work (dont get me wrong, I render RD OT sometimes but only because I couldnt sleep no matter how hard I try to). I wish work comes handy like that, where you can just go there only cuz you cant sleep or you're in the mood and still get paid equally.

I've heard people saying that they want to resign blah blah blah but they end up staying for another month and another month and another month cuz they know they couldnt find a company that pays a big amount of money by just sitting in front of computer. The job isnt hard. I could even navigate on computers with my eyes closed (it's just an ideom lol). Point is, I just couldnt adjust. People are nice (so dont think theyre the reason why im writing this) but schedules arent.

Maybe I should give this a shot for a month or two and see how this goes. Seriously tho, you only sit in front of computer, clicking and typing stuff and get paid. I kinda like the way how it works.. Only if the schedule given is within my desired timeframes. Lol

I'm Done

I just want God to take my life already. I’m sick and tired of all this shit. Tired of people not giving a damn, tired of those who lie and say they’ll be there, and yet they never are. Tired of being treated like an insignificant piece of shit. Tired of being let down, and given up on. Tired of dealing with people who use me, and people who don’t even give me a second glance. Tired of trying to be “happy”, because I know I will never obtain it. Tired of trying to find a girl who will love me, treasure me, and not leave me behind in the dust. Sure, people read my statuses and posts about my depression, but do they actually give a fuck and try to do something about it? Rarely. That just adds on to the fact that no one cares. No one takes me seriously.

Sales

Idk why Im not good in selling things. I know i can be very persuasive at times but i cant be consistent. Theres something thats pulling me back.

At work, we're required to sell at least 12 products in a month which is hard esp for the newbies like us. We might think that if others can sell 30+ products in a month, why cant we. But seriously, there r other things that we need to prioritize at work than selling products which arent even guaranteed that we can get commission from it.

I suck at selling but hey, Steve Jobs didnt get consistently successful t first. He struggled and if he did it, why can I?!! Worrddds

I Want A Date

I want to walk up to a door nervously with a handful of flowers behind my back praying to God that my hair doesnt look stupid or my clothes dont look spiffy enough. I want to 'panagbalay' and wait for you to open the door as I stand there trying to figure out what to say when I see you as It ry to remember what I have planned for the evening. I want to be speechless as time slows down when you open the door and I lay my eyes on you. I want to tell you how beautiful you look because I know hard you worked on looking your best. I want to open the car door to let you in and out. I want to hold the door open when we get to the restaurant. I want to have a dinner full of jokes and stories as I utilize every moment to get to know you. I want a kiss at the end of the knight that will send my heart soaring. I want butterflies on the ride home with a stupid that won't go away.

What A Way To Make A Living

so as ya'll know I've been working for this company for a couple of months now and I see progress. I couldnt specify the 'progress' I noticed but i'm sure I could feel it everday whenever I come to my workplace.

1st 2 months wasnt easy. It was a roller coaster ride for me but more with a downside. I thought working in a BPO industry is easy since you only accommodate clients and get paid for basically doing easy things. But no!! My assumption stopped there. It was hard AF like everyday Im struggling!! I've even thought of quitting several times already but those thoughts were countered of the benefits I get in working for the company. To be specific, the $$$..

Earning 8-10K a month is a brand new thing for me. I get to earn em through my own blood and sweat and the feeling of not asking money from my parents anymore is just fulfilling. All I have to do is go to office everyday, take calls, have convo with my wavemates and friends and just do my job but having a good time at the same time.

TO BE CONTINUED..

Sore Throat

..is a major bitch. WTF

I hate this thing. I hate when this caught me! I feel like it's the start of an agony for the next few days!

I've been looking for the best remedy that could possibly get rid of this in a day or two but I haven't found any. Saltwater gargle may be a good option but my throat might take a week to heal. Hmm I chewed on lozenges last Friday and I guess it only worsened the condition.

I don't usually care when this happens but now, I should! I'm afraid this might be the cause of an illness this week and I can't afford to get sick. I should never get sick during my training! This job is very important and if I go absent because of this, I may be terminated. I'm just looking on the negative possibilities because that's the reality -____-

I Am Not A Coffee Person

I grew up without so much interest in coffee. I remember when I was in gradeschool/highschool, I didn't like the taste of coffee at all. I found it nasty. When I got to college, junior yr specifically, I discovered the benefits of drinking coffee but I still don't drink it on a daily basis. I drank coffee occasionally at that time until I reached senior yr where almost every break, me and my classmates would go to Kenzi/Bamboo Orange just to grab a cup.

Last week, I was on my 3-11 shift and I drank coffee just to get through the night. I had my first cup at around 3 and the second one was at 5. I felt weird at those moments. And then my last cup was at 9. (The cups are free actually, straight from the machine lol) as I drank from my last cup, I started to palpitate. I didn't even finish my coffee, I felt like I was gonna collapse. My legs started to feel weird and they were shaking! Before I could even finish my cup, I threw it out. At that time, I just remember the remedy for intoxication, and that's to drink plenty of water. Few minutes after I did it, I felt good. I was back on track! But I swear, it didn't feel good at all!

I guess my tolerance on coffee/caffeine isn't that high enough for me to stand 3 cups a day. If ever I need to drink coffee, like NEED, a cup or two would be enough.