This Break

So we finally have our break for the whole 2 months and it's gonna be tomorrow and on Tuesday. Class resumes this Wed. I kinda want it to be longer though but I know that if they put breaks every week, then we might not be able to catch up with the topics that need to be discussed. I think we're not even halfway there. There are too many topics that we need to work on or discuss especially in Medical Surgical Nursing. So far, well, as far as I know, we've only discussed 8 of 18 topics (I just made up those numbers just to let you see how far we've accomplished) so it means that we still need to double time and we cant slack off cuz our licensure examination is gonna be 27days from now!

I dont even wanna talk about the examination because I get nervous and excited at the same time but whatever. We're in the medical field and it's never easy! There too many things to memorize and understand and it even extends from medical field to nationalistic/professional field of nursing and things that are related to it, ahhh i couldnt even explain.

I've Grown Up

My friends told me that I should go out with them two weeks ago without a significant reason. To make the long story short, I said 'NO' then the thought came to my mind that I havent gone out for sooo long since college. I havent even looked forward to parties anymore. It's like, Im not interested with staying up late at parties, drinking my ass out and what not.

then I thought, there are other ways to have fun rather than staying up late, drinking, smoking, and dancing all night. You can chil at coffee shops with friends, totally sober, making the most of the night and you go home at 11 or 12 the maximum. Well, I think that'd be more fun rather than going to clubs. You can go to a coffee shop that plays party music without alcohol, I mean, we have options.

So these last few weeks, I asked my friend KC if she could go out with me and hit a good club in the city. When we got there, there werent alot of ppl which was really strange cuz usually, that club get jampacked with ppl but it was a totally different crowd. Pretty unsual. Ok so we went there, ordered a couple of drinks and sat on the couch looking at those ppl dancing. We had a good time, I admit but we thought that it'd been better if we had gone to any fast food place or cafe which we can eat and talk about stuff without loud music on the background.

I guess she agreed to go out with me cuz she has realized the same thing. It was pretty awkward cuz at some point, we didnt know what to do in that club. So we ended up going home without doing anything in particular.

The next week, my friends from college asked me to go out as well cuz it's been awhile since we havent seen each other. If I were to count the weeks, I think about 4months. It has been a really long time so I decided to go out with them. Chilled at one of our favorite places in the city and talked about our experiences in college and random stuff. It was a pretty cool night. We didnt get drunk.

Bottom line is, whatever you wanna do to have fun, make sure that you do it with the right company at a right time and in a right place. You dont wanna waste your time dealing with nonsense ppl and get totally awkward with them. Always find something meaningful to talk about rather than keeping quiet and waiting for the time to go home. Enjoy, I think that's the most important thing in going out.

Tired

It came to the point where I dont enjoy work anymore. I cant get up at 2a everyday and expect a fully energized body throughout the day. I know this kind of job isnt strange anymore. People wake up at the break of dawn and get ready for work and idk if they're used to it but im not. I've been in this company for 5 months now and as much as I try to keep my body adjusted in this transition, I just cant. There are times that Im really in the mood for work (dont get me wrong, I render RD OT sometimes but only because I couldnt sleep no matter how hard I try to). I wish work comes handy like that, where you can just go there only cuz you cant sleep or you're in the mood and still get paid equally.

I've heard people saying that they want to resign blah blah blah but they end up staying for another month and another month and another month cuz they know they couldnt find a company that pays a big amount of money by just sitting in front of computer. The job isnt hard. I could even navigate on computers with my eyes closed (it's just an ideom lol). Point is, I just couldnt adjust. People are nice (so dont think theyre the reason why im writing this) but schedules arent.

Maybe I should give this a shot for a month or two and see how this goes. Seriously tho, you only sit in front of computer, clicking and typing stuff and get paid. I kinda like the way how it works.. Only if the schedule given is within my desired timeframes. Lol

I'm Done

I just want God to take my life already. I’m sick and tired of all this shit. Tired of people not giving a damn, tired of those who lie and say they’ll be there, and yet they never are. Tired of being treated like an insignificant piece of shit. Tired of being let down, and given up on. Tired of dealing with people who use me, and people who don’t even give me a second glance. Tired of trying to be “happy”, because I know I will never obtain it. Tired of trying to find a girl who will love me, treasure me, and not leave me behind in the dust. Sure, people read my statuses and posts about my depression, but do they actually give a fuck and try to do something about it? Rarely. That just adds on to the fact that no one cares. No one takes me seriously.

Sales

Idk why Im not good in selling things. I know i can be very persuasive at times but i cant be consistent. Theres something thats pulling me back.

At work, we're required to sell at least 12 products in a month which is hard esp for the newbies like us. We might think that if others can sell 30+ products in a month, why cant we. But seriously, there r other things that we need to prioritize at work than selling products which arent even guaranteed that we can get commission from it.

I suck at selling but hey, Steve Jobs didnt get consistently successful t first. He struggled and if he did it, why can I?!! Worrddds

I Want A Date

I want to walk up to a door nervously with a handful of flowers behind my back praying to God that my hair doesnt look stupid or my clothes dont look spiffy enough. I want to 'panagbalay' and wait for you to open the door as I stand there trying to figure out what to say when I see you as It ry to remember what I have planned for the evening. I want to be speechless as time slows down when you open the door and I lay my eyes on you. I want to tell you how beautiful you look because I know hard you worked on looking your best. I want to open the car door to let you in and out. I want to hold the door open when we get to the restaurant. I want to have a dinner full of jokes and stories as I utilize every moment to get to know you. I want a kiss at the end of the knight that will send my heart soaring. I want butterflies on the ride home with a stupid that won't go away.

What A Way To Make A Living

so as ya'll know I've been working for this company for a couple of months now and I see progress. I couldnt specify the 'progress' I noticed but i'm sure I could feel it everday whenever I come to my workplace.

1st 2 months wasnt easy. It was a roller coaster ride for me but more with a downside. I thought working in a BPO industry is easy since you only accommodate clients and get paid for basically doing easy things. But no!! My assumption stopped there. It was hard AF like everyday Im struggling!! I've even thought of quitting several times already but those thoughts were countered of the benefits I get in working for the company. To be specific, the $$$..

Earning 8-10K a month is a brand new thing for me. I get to earn em through my own blood and sweat and the feeling of not asking money from my parents anymore is just fulfilling. All I have to do is go to office everyday, take calls, have convo with my wavemates and friends and just do my job but having a good time at the same time.

TO BE CONTINUED..